Sunday, October 16, 2005
Reflection
Whew! I really need some time to breathe ... this week has been so incredibly hectic -- I cannot even tell you. Things are on the brink of changing (I hope for the better) and I need to really sit down, weigh my options and then decide on how to proceed. In all the various meetings and in all the interviews I've really had to reflect on my whole blogging experience -- going all the way back to the beginning.
This whole blog started out as a personal diary of my daily life. It was never meant to become a treatise on pop culture nor did I ever imagine that I would become a spokesperson for anyone or anything other than myself. My first post ever started out like this:
Today is the first day....
...of the rest of my life....or something like that.
I've never actually been good at journaling. I usually get bored and give up. Then I get inspired again and try to start all over....you know the drill -- I'm sure I'm not the only one like this. Hahahah why am I writing as if to an audience? I guess it's kinda weird doing this online (especially when I opted to have this posted for public viewing) but I'm sure no one will be interested in my life and will have no interest in reading what I have to say about anything.
Cut to 3 years later with me flying back and forth from Detroit to both New York City and Los Angeles taking meetings with entertainment business people considering offers to move the blog into new areas of existence. It's a very weighty undertaking ... I never imagined that my online journal would turn into something that would give me the opportunity to make a living out of it.
I've never had to consider managers, agents, lawyers, staff members (!!!) or anything of the sort before. I just don't understand the hype. I'm just Trent from Detroit Rock City. Don't get me wrong, it's very exciting and I'm very hopeful that I can do something that will be fun, entertaining and true to who I am.
With all of this new found fame (or infamy) or whatever comes an extra heaping of expectation. Invariably there will be negative comments left by people who feel that they have ownership of this blog. I now routinely get the "you suck" or "you sold out" messages which make me sad but just goes to show the power of this blog. I never imagined that people would actually care about what I had to say about anything ... and now if I do not write something every day at the same time I get grief over it.
But in the end ... it's just the way things are now. I have new options and new opportunities that I never dreamed of before. Sitting here ... writing all of these thoughts ... really takes me back to the good old days -- back to when only my 8 friends would read my blog just to keep up with what was going on with me. Yes, there are new pictures of Britney Spears ... yes, there are new pictures of Paris Hilton ... and they will come ... prolly tomorrow ... but for today I need to just do this for me.
I leave for New York City tomorrow ... I'll be in NYC until Thursday. Check out TRL tomorrow -- Madonna will be the guest and I will be in the audience ... check it out if you like. My life has become a whirlwind and I'm just trying to hold on and enjoy the ride. Hopefully you Pink readers will come along with me ... maybe we can enjoy this craziness together.
Posted 3:30 PST
[Permalink]
Advertisement
search this site
