Sunday, April 06, 2008
I took one semester of German in college which essentially means that I can't speak or read a bit of German at all so the VF interview in German is all Greek to me. I was able to sorta translate the page by using Babel Fish so that I could get a general idea of what was discussed. Apparently, Bill finds groupie sex "disgusting", reveals that he misses his family while away from them on tour and confesses that he hates being separated from his twin brother, Tokio Hotel guitarist Tom Kaulitz. From what I can decipher from the interview, Bill comes across as a nice and innocent boy ... whether that is truly the case (which would be rare when you consider the long history of rock 'n roll debauchery that comes with fame) or is just the way his persona is being spun by his handlers (ie. remember when Britney Spears was proclaiming her virginity when later we were told she was lying all along) I think that Tokio Hotel are doing everything right thus far. The band has enjoyed huge success in Europe and they've got their sights set on conquering the US as well (the band will be releasing their US debut album Scream on May 6). Even if that never happens (after all, Kylie Minogue still hasn't been able to crack the US market successfully after 20 years in the biz) the band still has a chance to have a hugely successful career overseas. I suspect that this is only the first of many magazine covers for the boys of Tokio Hotel. [Source]
UPDATE: Pink reader Kati from Austria took the time to translate the entire Vanity Fair interview with Bill Kaulitz from German to English and I think she did an amazing job ... so here is the full text of her translation:
Vanity Fair: Mr. Kaulitz, how do you feel after your vocal cords surgery?
Bill Kaulitz: Well, how do you feel when someone put a metal device into your throat to cut on your vocal cords with small knives. This is a feeling everyone knows. Man, I'm happy that it's over. But I'm still scared for my voice and am feeling bad because of the cancelled concerts.
VF: How long will you be gone?
BK: I'm not allowed to speak after the surgery for twelve days. Then I have to go to voice-rehab for four weeks, that's something I so wanna do.
VF: Let's talk about your past. It says, creativity comes from the memory of pain. What was your pain?
BK: The biggest pain was the breakup of my parents. I was seven years old and did not understand. This really formed me. On our first album there's a song about this time, it's called "against my will".
VF: Your stepdad Gordon Trümper is a guitar teacher. What does your biological father do?
BK: He's a truck driver and lives in Hannover.
VF: When you were eight years old, your family moved from Magdeburg into the small town Loitsche. How did you experience this?
BK: I felt terrible, because I'm no small-town guy at all. You can imagine how Tom and I stood out. People looked at us like we were aliens, out of our minds. School was terrible too, I had to get up at half past five in the mornings to catch the bus, and I came home at half past four. I really hated it! And then there were always the same faces at school. It was the worst time of my life.
VF: How did the teachers react to the brothers Kaulitz?
BK: Until seventh grade Tom and I were always together. Then they put us apart as a punishment. It was a slap in the face that formed me as well. Until then we really did everything together. We are monozygous twins and are very close. Of course we protested against the punishment, but the teachers said that they couldn't come against us together, because we had such a big mouth. I wasn't someone to signal and then just tell in a low voice. I was always screaming around. My mother was asked to come to school every second day.
VF: It was your speciality to challenge the grades of a test when it wasn't returned in time. Where did you have this knowledge from?
BK: I always knew that I didn't need school because I'd be a singer. And because the teachers were such a pain in my ass, I really wanted to know about my rights. I knew what teachers were allowed to do and what they weren't. I had some teachers, they were really out of it. Some of them didn't want to greet me because I had my fingernails painted black and hat my hair up. They said I couldn't go to school like this. One didn't want to teach me because I looked the way I did. They said things like: "The head is not just for a good hairstyle." I was an anti-student and didn't put up with anything.
VF: How about your grades?
BK: They were great. I've had an average grade of 1,8 (fyi: 1 is the best, 6 is the worst). That was something the teachers really hated.
VF: Could the teachers hurt you?
BK: No. I haven't been an ill nail biting freak. I always had great self confidence. I styled myself the way I did because I knew I'd stand out and the teachers would talk about it. I really loved that, I wanted to stand out and wanted people to talk about me.
VF: Recently you finished school (something like junior high, it's not a grad so you can go to college) as a distance student. How important is it to know the difference between Omelette and Hamlet?
BK: Well, you should know the difference. But school is way less individual than it should be. Why should I learn algebra, knowing that I will never ever need it again? After eighth class I dropped out of music class and everybody looked at me like I was insane. But we just learned biographies of people - nothing inspiring. I always had bad grades in singing because I had to sing some country stuff. It was horror!
VF: Is it true that music was your ticket out of the boredom of the province?
BK: Yes. I always thought that I had to get out of this boring little town where everybody knows everyone. Worst thing for me is everyday life. I hate everyday life. Because of this, Tokio Hotel is the best thing for me. Every day is different, another city, other people.
VF: Thanks to paparazzi you are under constant observation. Love it or hate it?
BK: When I was a little boy, I imagined myself being taped by cameras everyday and these tapes being sent out to the world. I wanted unlimited attention. Today this dream came true, so I really can't hate it.
VF: Will anyone ever be that important to you as your brother Tom?
BK: No. Never. I couldn't imagine my life without Tom. You cannot describe how close we are. We have the same thoughts and often even the same dreams. It's like we didn't even need to speak to each other.
VF: Many twins just hate it and give themselves hard times because of it.
BK: Of course we are fighting. Really hard. Just like wanting to knock some sense into the other one. Last year in a hotel room we went crazy and wanted to hit the other one with some chairs. But we're not bearing grudges, we slam the doors, and after ten minutes we talk to each other again.
VF: Who is more you: all-made-up Bill or just the natural Bill?
BK: Definitively all made up Bill. Natural Bill is like a disguise for me. If I wasn't known ba people, I would still walk around all made up, it's such a big part of myself.
VF: Who sees you without make up?
BK: My family. And no one else.
VF: Kid stars are the most pervasive species of stars, because the have an expiration date and destroy themselves by becoming older. Are you gonna show some break downs to keep the interest high?
BK: It's good to show that you make mistakes. But I don't really care about this too much, I don't want to do something just because otherwise the fans would go away. From the beginning, I really hated other bands or managers that wanted to tell me how things work. There are no rules! During one of our first meetings with the record company they wanted us to have a stylist to create our image. Until today I have no stylist who tells me what to wear, this would restrain my life. We decide on ourselves over every concert and every contract because I think it's the worst thing not to decide your own life.
VF: Who is allowed to say "no" to you?
BK: In business no one. Not the management and not the record company. The only ones that I really listen to are my family and friends. My mother can say, "Bill you're crazy!" That's a thing I would really think about.
VF: Do your parents still try to educate you?
BK: I have to say, my mom never really educated us. Doing homework was totally voluntary. She gave us freedom, but always had a protecting eye on us. We really trust each other and talk like friends. There is nothing I wouldn’t tell my mom. I never had a secret. When I came home drunk for the first time, she told me what she taught about it, but I had never had to be scared of her.
VF: Does your mother want your hair en natural on Christmas eve?
BK: No, she really doesn't care about it. When I was nine years old, I dyed my hair for the first time. They were green, blue, white and black. I've had my eyebrow pierced with thirteen. She was really relaxed.
VF: At your concerts approximately 200 female teenagers faint, signs that say "Fuck me through the monsoon" are held up high. How does it feel knowing that millions of girls project their upcoming sexual fantasies on you?
BK: I don't think much about this, to be honest. Sometimes we look at each other and start laughing because we can't imagine that anybody has a poster of us in his room. But I really liked the thought of being there on someone's wall. In the past I sat in my room and taught about what would my idol Nena do just now, where she was and what she thought. I can't imagine that now people are thinking of me this way. To myself I'm so normal, and to the other bandmembers too. We don't really see each other.
VF: How often do you see yourself in the third person?
BK: Sometimes by mistake. If I have no energy to do something, I think: Bill should so it anyways because it's good for the band.
VF: You are very professional at public appearances. Does there even exist a difference between the real Bill and the artificial character Bill?
BK: Some things you just have to keep to yourself. But in general there is not such a big difference there. The last three years were a nonstop run. There was no cut, nowhere to be really private. Even on tour we had cameras around us 24/7. How should you experience something that not everybody knows a few hours later? But this is something I ever wanted, so I'll have to live with it and arrange myself to it.
VF: Is there something you don't like about being Bill?
BK: The main problem is trust. I don't trust easily. I didn't find a new friend in the last five years and I didn't fall in love. If I meet someone I'm careful. Unfortunately we met many people that changed or told stories to the papers. If I wasn't famous, maybe I'd fallen in love with someone I already know a long time ago.
VF: Who betrayed you the worst?
BK: I've never let my guard down, so nobody had the opportunity to it. I don't have the freedom to just go out and meet people without telling someone. But regardless of it, my life is the way I always wanted it to be.
VF: Are the trust issues the reason that stars like to date stars?
BK: Yes. Angelina Jolie doesn't need to be afraid of Brad Pitt using her to get famous. Celebrities are looking for someone that lives the same life and loves the same life. My girlfriends never understood that I preferred going to the rehearsal room right after school and making appearances in clubs on weekends than to sit around with them at home and watch TV. Today everything is a bit harder, cause who wants to live the same life you live? And of course this person has to know that you can't get out of this life easily.
VF: When was the last time you were in love?
BK: Three and a half years ago. I don't believe in the big love and I don't think that everybody will find his love. In my situation I have to be very lucky to find my love.
VF: At age 18, don't you prefer fooling around?
BK: I don't know. Especially in this life I would prefer a love story over fooling around. I want to share the little time I have with someone I know: she's the one.
VF: Did you ever say "I love you" to a girl?
BK: Yes. But I didn't mean it. I should have said, I like you, I'm attracted to you. The older I get, the more important this difference becomes to me. Tom probably says "I love you" to girls all the time to get them into bed.
VF: Are you fighting over the same girls?
BK: We have the same taste when it comes to girls. Our girlfriends were always friends themselves. This really sucked because they conspired against us. We had our first kiss with the very same girl. Tom was the first one. After one day she started kissing me. Then it was over - I hated it, I think everyone hates the first kiss.
VF: How old have you been?
BK: Eleven. She was three years older and knew what to do.
VF: When was Toms first time?
BK: I think he was 14, if I remember correctly.
VF: It says that Tom has many girls.
BK: That's his thing. I wouldn't want to hook up with someone else every night, but we are very different in this thing.
VF: Robbie Williams once said, that German groupies come in two different species. The one that makes a photo during sex to have evidence, and the other one that ask if your feelings for them are real.
BK: Tom says the same thing. Since we are on tour so much, I've had no one in bed. I think it's kind of disgusting to let someone you don't know into your bed every night. I'm not there yet. I wouldn't trust enough to just take someone with you for one night. Your hotel room is the only private thing you have on tour, so I wouldn't just take someone with me and let them stay with me.
VF: Did you have your first time already?
BK: I want this to stay a secret.
VF: Don't you wonder why some people think you're gay?
BK: Not at all. They think: make up and done hair equals gay. I wanted to make a statement that it has not to be this way. Everybody can do as he likes. One thing doesn't necessarily connect with the other.
VF: What would you do if you were a girl for one day?
BK: Definitely not going with my brother!
BK: Oh my god, what would I do? Probably the same things as I do now, because I don't make much of a difference.
VF: What would you forbid girls if you could?
BK: Not being jealous. If I am in love, I take the other person and don't let him go. It would drive me crazy if my girlfriend would say, "Oh Bill, I don't care about all the screaming girls, I really trust you."
VF: Have you ever been cheated on?
BK: No. And I never cheated on someone else. Loyalty and fidelity are the most important things for me.
VF: What did your girlfriends hate about you?
BK: I'm talking really loudly. The whole day. And with hand and feet. And I don't let them speak out, I always interrupt. That’s something everybody hates.
VF: What's more difficult: to love someone else or to love yourself?
BK: To love yourself. It's hard to be yourself and stand to it. There are moments where I'm feeling self conscious and want to dig a hole, climb in, put a blanket over it and stay in for a year. Sometimes I'm really happy that we are in this daze with one concert after the other, because I don't have the time to think about all of it. There is just no time for feeling lonely.
VF: Can you live without a personal assistant?
BK: I can't just go to the bakery, so this is something someone else is doing for me. But the rest is in my hands, because I'm very perfectionist. I can't let anything out of hands. I have to do everything and every little detail, because I have to know exactly what's about to come. I'd go insane if I didn't. Tom is the same. We pay a lot of people that should do this stuff for us, but it's hard to let other people lay hands on Tokio Hotel because we build everything by ourselves.
VF: Do you control your money by yourself?
BK: Yes. We did this since we're 13 years old. I control all of my bank accounts the same way as I control my career.
VF: When will your parents get a mansion as a present?
BK: That's the first thing I'm gonna do when I have enough money. I definitely want to live together with my parents. We're so close that I wouldn't think of it as a burden. there are no limits where I would say, "You have to go outside right now."
VF: Hypothetically, if you would be kidnapped, what do you think would be a realistic ransom?
BK: As much as all of my friends can throw together. Afterwards they would get it back, of course.
VF: What do you think about the breakdown of Britney Spears?
BK: I can understand how this happened because I live this life too. People from outside probably think," She has money, she has done everything, why doesn't she just relax and lean back?" I couldn't imagine having a solo career and being on tour alone all the time. I don't trust myself to handle all this pressure by myself.
VF: Madonna once said, "I'll only be happy when I'm as famous as god." Do you think the same way?
BK: That's a funny sentence, of course. But I really can relate to it, because there is no limit. You don't say, "I'm famous in Germany, that's enough." You want to be as famous as you can possibly be. Even if I were super rich and have my own island, I would go on. Fame is a drug and without it my life would be hard.
VF: If drugs weren't illegal, which ones would you want to try?
BK: Something relaxing that makes me not want to control everything.
VF: Are you dreaming of yourself as a star?
BK: Once I had a nightmare: I was lying in a room made of glass in my bed, and around me there were standing photographers without end. I said to one of our team if he could send them away, and he said, "No can do, you had an appointment and overslept." But I never oversleep because I always set three alarms so I don't oversleep. I'm always on time, too.
VF: Why didn't anybody see you dance yet?
BK: I don't dance. I'm always sitting in a corner, but not if I'm totally wasted. Then I can dance too. I think dancing is such a girl thing. Even if this sounds stupid, but only girls have to dance everywhere.
VF: Do you ever think of your funeral?
BK: I have to admit: yes. Friends in my age do it too. You picture which people will be there and who would really cry over your loss.
VF: Which song should be played?
BK: 'Magic dance' from David Bowie. It's a really funny song and I really love 'The labyrinth' until now.
VF: What will you be wearing?
BK: I'm in black and I'll wear a leather jacket. My last wish would be that my hair is done the same way it's now. Hopefully I'll have hair left then. If not, someone should get me a wig.